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Part one is here.
Part two is here.




Captain’s Log… We’ve arrived at Starbase Nine. Doctors McCoy and M’Benga are meeting with Doctor Sedgwick to discuss my…situation. Scotty and Chekov will also be showing them the adaptations they’ve made to the Faradi device. They assure me that this time tomorrow I will be back to my normal self. I’ll be relieved of course, but I must say I have found this whole experience to be quite…educational.


The entire operation the next morning is anticlimactic. Jim puts on one of her older uniforms, and goes to the Cargo Bay where Scotty, Chekov, and Dr. Sedgwick await. She gets into the machine, experiences a sensation not unlike that of being in the transporter, and when she gets out again, she’s a he.

He smiles at Bones, whose whole body relaxes. “Jim,” he says with this huge wide smile, and Jim has to repress the urge to kiss him right there in front of everyone. Bones runs his tricorder over him thoroughly. “Everything seems to be in order.”

“As we knew it would be,” Scotty says reprovingly.

“Indeed,” agrees Dr. Sedgwick, while Scotty continues to grumble about his tarnished reputation and beagles.

“Eet ees good to see you yourself again, Keptin,” says Chekov, smiling brightly.

“It’s good to feel myself again,” Jim says. His voice sounds funny to his own ears, and he sways slightly.

“I feel like I’m not walking right,” says Jim in surprise.

“I wouldn’t be surprised,” says Bones. “Your whole center of balance has shifted—again. Let’s get you to our quarters—you’ll need some time to adjust.”

Dr. Sedgwick coughs slightly, Scotty smiles, and Chekov blushes a bright red.

“Oh for God’s sake, get your mind out of the gutter, people!” Bones grumbles, but he’s nontheless guiding Jim out the door, to Jim’s own relief.

~

Jim shakes his head. “I felt like I was starting to get a hang on being a woman,” he says. “Now I have to relearn to be a guy, too? Talk about no-win scenarios!”

Leonard laughs as they enter their quarters. “I doubt that,” he says. “Don’t worry, I’ll make sure you remember your old self soon.”

“Oh?” says Jim. His eyes sparkle and he has his peculiarly Jim face on, that look of smug confidence and sensual abandon that makes Leonard tingle slightly just looking at him.

“Mmhmm.” Leonard kisses Jim softly, then harder. Everything about the kiss seems to stand out in relief to him: the shape of his lips, the slightly rough feel of his skin—his cheeks are smooth enough, but there’s the slight rough awareness of the stubble that will pepper his face in a few hours. Jim’s smell is different, he realizes; muskier, emphatically male. Leonard inhales it deeply. “Jesus, Jim,” he says reverently.

“Miss me, Bones?” Jim murmurs.

“I hadn’t realized it ‘til now, but yeah—yeah, I think I did.” Leonard looks at him, at that well-loved face, as familiar as his own, now. “Don’t get me wrong, I love you no matter what, but—I really love you when you’re you.”

Jim laughs at that. “Oh, Bones,” he says, and kisses him again. The kiss changes, becoming harder. “I need you, Bones,” he says huskily. “I need you right now.”

“I know,” says Leonard. “I need you too.” Jim is pulling at his clothes, kissing him intermittently as their things are discarded until it’s just the two of them, skin to skin. He pulls Leonard to the bed, sighing softly. “Bones, Bones, Bones.”

“Jim,” answers Leonard. He looks at his lover, admiring him: the flat planes of his chest, the light hairs that dust his stomach, the cock growing erect with interest and arousal. He takes the head of it into his mouth, flicking his tongue over the slit, savoring the salty taste of Jim’s pre-cum.

“Fuck, Bones,” Jim hisses.

Leonard stops. “Workin’ on it, Jim,” he says as his lover laughs softly. “Patience now, darlin’.” He traces lazy figure eights along Jim’s testicles with his index finger, then takes them into his hand gently as he continues to gently suckle his cock.

“I need you, Bones,” says Jim hoarsely. “Bones! Please?”

“Hush,” he answers. “Just let me take care of you. Doctor’s orders, now.”

He continues to suck on Jim’s shaft, moving with a familiar rhythm. He can feel Jim straining in his mouth, is vaguely aware of the hands running through his hair as he works. Jim cries out roughly when he comes, filling his mouth with salt. “Bones!”

Jim crumples bonelessly onto the bed, breathing hard. Leonard looks up from his work and is surprised to see Jim’s face damp, tear trails streaking from the corners of his eyes down to his ears. “Jim?” he says, concerned.

“I’m just happy to be me again,” Jim says softly. “I love you, Bones. And I still need you. In me. Please?”

Leonard just nods, and reaches into the drawer of their nightstand to get the lube. He prepares himself and Jim expertly, and guides Jim’s legs over his shoulders. He bends down to kiss his lover again, and then he’s at Jim’s entrance, and then inside of him. Jim gasps a little when he’s all the way in.

“Are you okay, love?” Leonard asks.

“More than okay,” Jim answers. “Now fuck me. Please.”

Leonard begins moving, first gently, then faster. The sensation of Jim as a man is of course different than as a woman—different bodies, sexes, orifices. The feel of the heat is even different, though of course he knows that both bodies were around 98.6, Human normal. But most of all, right now? He’s fucking Jim, his Jim, his wonderful, brilliant, idiotic, precious Jim—

Leonard comes, and when he slumps down into Jim’s arms, Jim holds him there tightly, kissing his hair, his face. “Bones, Bones, Bones,” he murmurs.

“I love you, Jim” he says, and remains inside his lover a moment more.

“I know,” says Jim, who marvels at the man beside him, at their love that can withstand time, space, everything in between, and all the other adventures to come.

~

Totally Not the End.

Gratuitous Author’s Notes

The title is inspired by Virginia Woolf’s Orlando, a novel about a man becoming a woman. Orlando doesn’t have quite the support system in place that Jim does, though.

Rok-tor is a Vulcan settlement in this ‘verse.

Lieutenant Kyle was the transporter chief on several episodes of The Original Series.

The reboot movie site’s dossier on Scott says he was Archer’s aide for Advanced Relativistic Mechanics.

The V’tosh ka’tur are mentioned in the Enterprise episode “Fusion.”

Sybok appears in Star Trek V: The Final Frontier.

The conversation about Jim turning into a woman in the original timeline references his body exchange with Janice Lester in “Turnabout Intruder.” I’m also choosing to sort of explain away the technological discrepances/differences of TOS and AOS. And let’s face it, better replicators? Make writing some things easier.

Dr. Sedgwick is a reference to Eve Kosofky Sedgwick, the noted theoriest of gender and queer theory. She is perhaps most famous for her book Epistemology of the Closet. …This is my idea of an in-joke.

Comments

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secretsolitaire
Apr. 21st, 2010 12:33 pm (UTC)
This was a very interesting read! Lots of thought-provoking gender dynamics here. (The Faradi pissed me off so much, argh.) I liked how steady and loving Bones was so that Jim would have someone stable to lean on. And I thought I recognized the name Eve Sedgwick! :-)

(Also, I smiled when Cupcake made an appearance -- love that series by mcstories. ♥)
caitri
Apr. 21st, 2010 10:59 pm (UTC)
Awesome, thank you very much!! :)
linelenagain
Apr. 21st, 2010 03:30 pm (UTC)
That was awesome! I'm not usually a big fan of genderswap, but I really really enjoyed this - particularly the way Jim discovered that being a woman isn't always so easy. It felt realistic and true in a way that a lot of fics gloss over. And of course, your Bones was particularly panty-melting. ;) This is going straight into the bookmarks!
caitri
Apr. 21st, 2010 10:59 pm (UTC)
*blush* Wow, thanks!!!
pixelmayhem
Apr. 22nd, 2010 09:36 am (UTC)
Oh this was very interesting indeed! I admit I had some reservations in the beginning. Genderswap is such a tricky subject, but I kept reading and enjoyed where you took it.

I think my favorite part was Jim telling off the Faradi from the bridge. Or maybe it was Scotty talking about transporter malfunctions, or maybe Cupcake (just...omg everything about Cupcake!) or maybe...;)

*goes to re-read*

Edited at 2010-04-22 09:40 am (UTC)
caitri
Apr. 23rd, 2010 12:03 am (UTC)
Awesome, thanks!! :D

This version of Cupcake is all mcstories--I just got to borrow him for a while! :)
weepingnaiad
Apr. 22nd, 2010 05:57 pm (UTC)
Not a big genderswap fan, but I love how you handled this! Your McCoy was just so gorgeous! He was that incredibly loving, talented, caring, and so sexy man that I adore and he took good care of Jim. The dichotomy of his feelings toward Jim were well shown and expressed.

Cupcake and Chekov? Haven't seen that before, but I actually enjoyed the insight into Cupcake.

Really enjoyed this so much!

Lovely!
caitri
Apr. 23rd, 2010 12:04 am (UTC)
Yay, thank you very much!!!! :)

This version of Cupcake is all mcstories--I just got to borrow him for a while! :)
tiedye_ragdoll
Apr. 29th, 2010 03:13 pm (UTC)
I love your characterization. This was a beautiful story. Thanks!
caitri
Apr. 29th, 2010 04:39 pm (UTC)
Awesome, thanks!! :)

Also, I think I have a crush on your icon now.
tiedye_ragdoll
Apr. 29th, 2010 07:54 pm (UTC)
he's so crush worthy. ^^
blcwriter
Jun. 14th, 2010 05:09 pm (UTC)
What a wonderful, thought-provoking read. Fabulous, funny, and meditative on gender and all that involves. I loved the hell out of this.
caitri
Jun. 14th, 2010 05:53 pm (UTC)
Yay, thank you! :D
rivana
Dec. 9th, 2010 10:59 pm (UTC)
One of the best genderbenders I've read. And damn but I want a southern gentleman Bones of my own. Also - I'm just sadistic enough to feel gleeful when Jim got his period, and had to learn the suckiness of being smaller and weaker. ^o^
caitri
Dec. 10th, 2010 12:04 am (UTC)
Hee, glad you enjoyed it and thank you for reading. :D
hsavinien
Feb. 8th, 2011 09:59 pm (UTC)
That was very fun. I'm glad to see a discussion of gender this thoughtful. ^_^
caitri
Feb. 9th, 2011 12:01 am (UTC)
*G* Thanks, I'm glad you liked it!!
wyntreaurora
Feb. 9th, 2011 05:27 pm (UTC)
First of all, like my icon says, whoa fascinating! Second, all the TOS references are awesome :) I love the way you wove all the timeline things together and explained differences and such. Also, Chekov and Cupcake? I see it, but ngl, it's weird and Idk if I could ever really get into that particular pairing, but it makes for an interesting dynamic within the confines of this story - I've always seen AOS!Chekov as smaller and more feminine (it's not Anton's fault he's so gosh darned adorable like that) so it really struck me as sort of a mirror of what Bones and Kirk were going through with one of them being so much bigger physically than the other, as well as an interesting look at Cupcake's own personal dynamics and ethics.

And I'm glad to hear this is not the end of this particular 'verse :) Totally confess that when you mentioned the whole civil war on Vulcan thing I was all "Oooh, I'd love to read that story!"

Oh, and I totally went and read the other stories in this 'verse first because I hadn't yet, and I loved each of them as well :) The boys and their need to be hit with the clue-bat sometimes lol
caitri
Feb. 9th, 2011 05:44 pm (UTC)
Yeah you need to read the Chekov stories by mcstories to get the Cupcake thing. Her series just totally blew my brain for head!canon there, though most of the rest of the time I'm all about Chekov/Sulu.

And I've got the better part of the next story in this series done, it's just that like so many other things I pick something up and put it down and yeah, my brain, IDEK. o_0 I think my two most driving fics now are the Kushiel!sequel and the expanded version of Expected Learning Outcomes. *sighs* I need more time for fic..
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